Living a Double Life

I recently returned from a long trip to Spain, the same town I lived in for two years and the same town that my husband is from.

I’ve been there many times, but this time I really felt like I had built a community of family and friends. We went out everyday with our friends and family. I knew and greeted the people who worked in the cafes and the shops who I saw almost everyday while I lived there. I knew the streets like the back of my hand, and I visited family who welcomed me with open arms, and hugged me super tight.

It’s so strange to live two different lives, but its kind of cool. When I’m there, I’m a  free spirit and happy, I don’t have many responsibilities, I go with the flow, I’m not necessarily a leader, I do what everyone does- go to the beach, eat, drink, and sleep. There’s not much more than that (besides running and boogie boarding). I’m pretty adaptable there. In NYC, I’m super busy and individual. I do my own thing, write in my journal, go to boot camp classes, I’m a professional with SO MANY responsibilities, sitting on two board of Directors, I run a youth program, and I consult. I’m a leader in NYC and I hardly have time to enjoy and relax.

Because these two lives are so different, I’m constantly missing one or the other and I cant seem to find a way to have the both that satisfies me. What can I do about this?

This last trip has shown me that I need to make some changes. I need to simplify my NY life and I need to get to Spain more. Now I have to map it all out…